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Sometimes I am just so fucking happy I feel like Katherine Hepburn at the end of Holiday... and then I realize that in that movie she is crazy and manic. Albeit entertaining and very fun.




I'm kinda in this place where no matter how shitty I feel, how ugly I think life is, how stressful and tense things can get- I just laugh. And brush it off. And power through. And all those cliche phrases for like, not letting yourself be brought down by bullshit.

I don't know if you know this, but that's what this all is: Bullshit.

Every second of everyday, save the very few in your life that really matter- Like when you have a kid burst forth from your fruitful womb, or teach that deaf person the sign for water, or invent the next SHAMWOW sensation, or pull that burning bus off an elderly lady on the freeway...

The rest is BS, and I mean that in the nicest way possible.

It's BS when you feel stressed out because of traffic or because your boss might be upset that you'll be late. It's BS when you feel guilt because of some illogical notion that you should, it's BS when you don't eat/drink/do something because of some sense of should.

I could go on and on... but I wont. To save you from my ranting.


Anyway, the point is that things are good.

It's nice to lay in bed with someone who makes me laugh so hard.
It's nice to enjoy both the simple bodily function funny and the complex had-to-have-heard-that-one-thing-on-NPR-last-week funny.
It's nice to have friends I can sit around a table with and make laugh until we all feel like puking.
It's nice to be cheerful without effort and be happy to just be.

It's different and seriously, wonderfully, idiotically happily ever after.


Which is ironic. And still... makes me laugh.


This isn't the happily ever after I was expecting. But damn. Sometimes I feel so humbled by it. And then I realize: HEY!! Fuck that. Lucky my ass. I deserve this shit. Why wouldn't I?

(This is the point where you aren't judging me for being a prick, but saying to yourself, 'Hey! I deserve it too! I'm gonna go get some-o that Happy for myself!' And then you get up from your computer and go get it. Bypassing all the bullshit and crap and just seizing that mother fucking day!)




Hey, at the very least, I think I'm hysterical... so there's that.