I hope your last thought gets to be, "Holy Crap, That's Awesome."

2/2/08

sidetracked

Amidst all this doctoring and getting better and finding Kate in a Kateless world I've been sidetracked into my own littleness and the orb that surrounds me moment to moment.


Today I made a resolution (prompted by one of my doctors) that I must do the following things everyday:

1. Leave the house
2. Go to the gym (get exercise)
3. Talk to someone outside my family
4. Be brave
5. Stop worrying

On top of the doctor's (other) orders, this is a lot of doctors orders:

1. No Caffeine
2. No Sugar
3. No Carbs
4. No non-organic products
5. No non-hormonal products
6. Take Omega 3 Fish Oil (x2 Daily, in Natural Lemon Flavor! Yum!!)
7. Take Vessel Care (x2 Daily)
8. Take Zinc (x2 Daily)
9. Take Selenium (x1 Daily)
10. Take Meta-I 3 C (x2 Daily)
11. Take Multigenics Intensive Care Supplements (x2 Daily)
12. Take Zertec D (x2 Daily)
13. Take Atavan (x2 Daily)
14. Take Ambien CR for sleep
15. Drink Water
16. Must have at least 1 Serving of Soy a day
17. No Liquor
18. No Salt
19. No Chocolate
20. No Fatty foods (No Butte or anything containing butter)
21. No Cured meats (ex: No ham)
22. No artificial sweeteners



On top of this my doctor told me that my portions should also be reduced... I said NO to that.

If all I can eat is nuts, twigs and bark then I'm going to eat all the goddamn bark I fucking want. Got that DOC?  


Although- there really isn't anything satisfying about any of the food I'm allowed to have so I really find myself eating "about a deck of card or less" sized portion of anything.

It's aggravating. The one thing I try to rebel on and I cant...





To give my doctors some credit, I do feel better. MUCH better than I did, at least... and that is something.



I am finding Kate even though I'm eating lots of well... I'm not really eating lots of anything. I'm finding Kate regardless of what's on the menu.



It's been over two weeks on this new life plan and while it's all hurrah for me and what-not- I hope that in the near future that an "organic" company comes out with a delicious tasting Chicken Noodle soup. So far I've tried three that tasted like wet tuna, onions or air... there's got to be a tasty organic soup out there. If this is supposed to stick for the rest of my life then I'm going to need to re-negotiate with the soup makers in this world.

2 comments:

the V said...

twigs and bark hurrah.

was there a honey verdict in the end? if not, modify an oatmeal honey cookie (i've got one you could try) - it'll be super dense being all oat and no flour and all honey and no sugar - but it's probably the closest you'll get to baked goods - and there is something amazingly satisfying about that.

also, not that this helps - but does polenta count? if not, i'd be all over cornbread like grease on a stripper pole.

i love you. i'm glad it's helping.

Jamie Lovely said...

Wow. You basically can't eat anything. :(

You're awesome picture with the dinosaur on 20SB drew me into your blog!